Well I have joined the blogging world. I think of this as my online diary for all to read! It's a little scary knowing personal issues can be read all over the world! Initially, I decided to create this blog so I could update my friends and family about recent events in my life. After starting I decided that this would be much more. I think I have a good story to share. And in sharing my story I will be unraveling years of shame and misunderstanding. I hope you find it interesting. I also hope someone out there reads this story and it inspires them. For me personally, it should be cathartic. I feel comforted knowing others will be taking this journey with me.
It's been almost one month since I left for London to meet my biological family. I feel more content today than before the trip. I feel a sense of peace (and accomplishment!) It's not a lot and life is far from perfect! But, I feel different. I see myself differently. I see others differently. I think it's a great thing. Although my week has been trying, I feel as if I am still evolving, processing, changing and growing up. It's been a crazy week with work schedules, kids and other family issues but I can handle it all.
It has been three weeks since I told my parents about my trip over to London. I told them about finding my birth mother, brothers, birth father (and sister!) I explained it, in an email, to give them space to feel it through and explained I wanted to further discuss in-person. My calls to them have gone unanswered and not returned. I have determined that they are pretty upset. I spent some time with my brother a few days ago and he confirmed that they told him they would not be speaking with me. They might feel as though I have replaced them. Or they might be upset that I didn't share the news with them initially or tell them about the travel over to London prior to leaving.
I feel a bit overwhelmed with the complexities of "my family." It is daunting trying to put it all in place. x
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